Spoonfull of sugar

Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down. I don’t think this handful of drugs was exactly what Mary Poppins was thinking of when she sang the lyrics. These days it takes a lot more than a spoonful… Read moreSpoonfull of sugar


**older poem… Not suicidal I’m all mixed up My head isn’t right I really want to die tonight The pills are calling or maybe the exhaust it’s the rope and a tree the final feeling of falling but those two… Read moreExisting


A trusting prey away from her herd. A predator waiting, silently watching, not a word. She is lost and alone, a scared little one. Out of the shadows he appears so suddenly. In a calming voice he states “follow me… Read morePrey


You see me You know me and all is well You accept me You respect me and all is well You leave me You break me and all is hell…    


You said I was “the perfect one” And I believed it Can’t count how many times I let you deceive me I assumed you meant every word that you said Now I know you said what you said so you… Read moreSong

We are all Angels

I believe we are Angels sent as warriors to endure pain humans feel that we may be empathetic in our guidance when our wings are fixed again. We are Angels with broken wings sent from Heaven to carry out our… Read moreWe are all Angels

Little girl

Little girl little girl why can’t I see all the things he did to me Big girl big girl why can’t YOU see I’m protecting you from the pain inside of me So I blind your eyes and give you… Read moreLittle girl

Bleed you out

I cut my hip again today Thinking maybe… possibly… I could bleed the hurt out I watched our memories run down my leg Like a crimson stream flowing down the side of a mountain… Our mountain… Our dreams How many… Read moreBleed you out

Can’t get out if bed

Today is one of those days I dread.  I’m sad, consumed in my grief.  I went to bed last night, Monday, around 5:00 p.m. and am still in bed at 2:00 p.m, Tuesday.  I’ve been asleep all but three of… Read moreCan’t get out if bed

What Borderline Personality Disorder Looks Like to Me

After visiting my blog you may be asking yourself… What is Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)?   Maybe you have an idea of what this diagnosis entails.  Possibly you suffer from BPD. It’s always good to start with a professional definition.  The… Read moreWhat Borderline Personality Disorder Looks Like to Me