What Borderline Personality Disorder Looks Like to Me

After visiting my blog you may be asking yourself… What is Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)?   Maybe you have an idea of what this diagnosis entails.  Possibly you suffer from BPD. It’s always good to start with a professional definition.  The… Read moreWhat Borderline Personality Disorder Looks Like to Me

Feedspot Top 40 BPD blogs

  Top 40 Borderline Personality Disorder Blogs and Websites on the Web I’m very thankful to feedspot for recognizing my blog.  I’m new and starting out is always the hardest. My mental illnesses are part of who I am… Do… Read moreFeedspot Top 40 BPD blogs

My Madness

  Whispers all around What are they saying Why all the frowns Are they talking about me My recent decent My fall into madness My weakness all is unpleasant Am I mad Is this what it is Have I gone… Read moreMy Madness

The Ambien Monster

Ambien is a necessary evil.  I can’t fall sleep or stay asleep without taking it.  My mind races and I often wake with nightmares.  I have tried many other sleep agents without success. Ambien is unlike any other sedative.  When… Read moreThe Ambien Monster

We are not victims

  Please do not label us as victims.  We are survivors, warriors.  We have seen evil; experienced evil in a way no person should. Calling us victims make us feel weak, passive. We are not these things.  We are strong,… Read moreWe are not victims


Do not Lay your whisper on a young ones ears for perhaps they might capture all your fears All the horrors purr through your lonely pervese lips While children coware under your evil eclipse Why would you tarnish such innocence… Read moreYou


Trigger warning and real life in your face: I’m now in recovery mode. When in this mode is when I actually “see” the damage I have done to my body.  The scars, I feel, become more noticeable.. Darker…deeper red… Like… Read moreScars

Grounded Angel

I lost my wings not long ago Listening to the voices below The pain I felt As each feather was plucked out Well haunt my mind, my spirit, my soul Forever leaving shivers down my spine The open spot where my… Read moreGrounded Angel

What is Pain?

Pain is personal, individual, actual.  Pain is unique, substantial, reclusive.  Pain is subjective.  Pain is relentless.  Pain is power.  Pain is awareness.  Pain is contrary.  Pain is nothing at all and everything possible.  Pain is alive but not living.  Pain… Read moreWhat is Pain?